Who's to know?

What happens when you have something to say, but saying it would change everything? Would you be ready? Why not? You are afraid. You are afraid of how things will end and of what will begin. A new beginning was what you were looking for, but now that initiation of that start is up to you, you pause. You hesitate. You aren't sure of what happens next. You've pondered it for years. You planned it out, but not on paper, which was your first mistake. Now that you're where you thought you wanted to be, what now?